so, im kinda mad
i feel like my parents and my brother dont realize that im gone
like they don't care
they're never home... i leave voicemails
never return the calls
i just want to hear their voice
my brother is online
he wont even talk to me...
he's too tired
any other time he's tired... he's up till  2 in the morning talking to other friends
seriously.... i miss them.... 
im not calling for money. not calling for anything else but just to tell them how i'm doing, ask them what they're doing and tell them im okay, see if everyone is okay... and to hear their voice


too much to ask, right?

Tags: family, mad, missing home
Current Mood: annoyed

I forgot to mention in my last blog entry that.... I received 1st place in the Talent Show. I received $100.00. It's been about (2) days I've been here in NJ and I can already hear my parents, my brother, and my dog in my mind. Like I hear past conversations I've had with everyone in NC. I guess this means... I'm actually missing it. I wasn't supposed to miss it though. I was supposed to forget reality and everything there and live HERE. but i cant. 

Just because I miss it doesn't mean I'm dying to go back home but this just means that everything in NC actually means something to me. Anyways I've been spending my free time reading, walking, sleeping, trying to stay away from the kitchen and stay away from PURE BOREDOM. I found a *spot* this afternoon in the park right near the house. Its this amazing gazebo-like building in the middle of an area filled with trees and open fields. 

The difference between NC and up north is that I can actually enjoy a wonderful park or scenic place up here. There are hardly any bugs that fly by your ear and make everything worse (the bugs). I sat there this afternoon (at the spot) for about 20 minutes. I was dying for an icecream bar from an ICE CREAM TRUCK. And I walked a few paces and found one! I ordered this Reeses Chocolate Ice Cream Bar. I enjoyed every bit of it as I walked back home. 

Tomorrow is the NJPAC Orientation. Which I can hardly wait for. It's what I'm here to do. So I'm dying to see what its going to be like. Its from 9:30am to 12:30pm. I'm hoping it'll be fun and it will make me even more anxious to participate in the program. 

This has been an awfully long blog. But I just had so much to say. erich_k has a blog now. He's a cool friend of mine back home. FASHION JUNKIE! so check his new blog out! Well, I'll be posting another entry after the orientation. Talk to you all later.

Tags: cream, erich, ice, missing home, nc, nj, njpac, show, talent
Current Location: Paterson - New Jersey
Current Mood: calm

beach was fun yesterday
met cool people
had tons of fun
lots of sand


today - crazy
got up @ 12:30 pm
shower, organized my clothes, got everything together
left the house for NJ by 4
got to Aunt Merc's house by 6
changed
got to the Estate House by 6:45pm, about
it was so pretty
pics of place
no pics of performance , sorry

pic 1  pic 2  pic 3  pic 4 pic 5 

enjoy the photos
great way to kick off the summer
ttyl

Tags: beach, nj, ny, pictures, show, talent
Current Location: Paterson - NJ
Current Mood: cheerful

sitting alone at Megans House
West Hempstead, NY
Megan, Drea, Caity @ last day of school
1/2 day
They're coming home around 12:30 (hopefully)
going to Long Beach with some cool people
going to have fun - taking alot of pictures
Talent show tomorrow
yesterday - bought nice clothing to wear
$60 tickets - $100 winning prize
i think it should be more, if there is a good turnout.

alittle bored

eyeing the trampoline....


LETS GO!

Tags: beach, brandon, caity, drea, hempstead, long, megan, new, school, show, talent, west, york
Current Location: Megan Brandon's House
Current Mood: bored

I made it to NY.
queens to be exact.
living with my aunt till Wendsday!
God am I excited.
Wendsday - Talent Show
prize money 
Orientation on Saturday
im looking at this trip to accomplish some goals.

1. become a stronger singer
2. Learn how to maintain my singing voice and sing in any enviroment
3. Become a much better dancer. 
4. gain more flexibility
5. loose about 20 pounds
6. become a better actor
7. learn how to not be scared and not hold back when improving or creating a character in a play or musical.

im excited to see what gets accomplished
cant wait...

cmmt

-k. tyler mcKenzie

Tags: acting, dance, goals, njpac, show, singing, talent
Current Location: New York - Queens

So I'm leaving tomorrow! And I haven't been able to breathe right yet! I can't express the excitement I'm feeling right now! And the program doesnt start till July but I'm leaving home for 2 months. That is pretty fricking extreme compared to the amount of time I've been away from my home. I mean its 2 months! Holy crap! 
All i can do is rest and talk to people and ask for good luck and more! 

I will be blogging offf and on to keep everyone posted. 

Keep reading. Please comment!

Tags: njpac
Current Mood: cheerful

NJPAC is getting really close and all I can do right now is pack, say my last goodbyes, and prepare for some rigorous training. The program doesnt start till July 2nd (i believe) but there is orientation on the 23rd of June and my aunt has signed me up for a talent show where I can win 100$ dollars. I'm really excited! There's always room for more money on my *new check card*! Fun stuff!

I recieved an email from Mr. Robinson saying that CATA received my transcripts and all I need to do is register and I will officially be attending Central Academy of Technology and Arts this fall! Exciting! What a better way to start off my well waited for Junior year at a school I've been dying to attend since umm.... Freshman year!

I'm trying to take this week slow. I only have a limited time here in NC until I leave and don't come back till August 5th! Which is umm... A LONG FRICKIN TIME! just saying! Anyways talk to you all later. I have some more packing to do. It seems like it never stops!

-ktm

Tags: cata, nc, njpac, talent show
Current Location: NC, NJ
Current Mood: excited
Current Music: Kat Deluna - Whine Up

     I'm trying to remember what I was talking about last! The Broadway Revue went amazing. It was a great turnout! I believe that all my tideous work trying to promote paid off. My solo went really well in my opinion. I was forced to do so well because I knew the people who were there and I had to impress them. So many people expect tons out of me. Once you create this rep - you have expectations that you must fulfill or you feel like you let everyone down and that they will talk about you forever despite the fact that they have no idea of what it's like to be up there on stage having to put on a good performance.
     School is over tomorrow! I took my H Geometry and H English 2 exams and GOD I'm glad they're over! I did well on the English 2 exam. I received a 83% way higher than what I expected and I received an 87% in the course. I thought I did pretty well on the Geometry exam! I just have to wait until I'm able to see my report card to see if I did well! But I have no doubt that I "passed" the exam. I just have to get the score that is up to my parents approval. I have to take my Theatre 2 exam for absenses. LAME! I know! But I must! It's only 15 questions and a story! I did not study because I really don't know what to study!
     It's June 7th meaning 10 more days until I leave NC for NJ! I will not be coming back till the first week in August! Yes! LONG TIME! but it's going to be a great experience! I'm sure I'll come back in the middle of my stay. I have to get my license before school starts and handle some other things. But I'm very excited. I'm very scared that I'll forget something here! Its very rare that i dont forget something important! I just want everything to go smoothly! 
     I got a puppy! He's a male chocolate lab/german! His name is Aiden! Aiden McKenzie! do you like the name!? He's about 7 weeks old!

     Thats him! God I love him! Tons of maintenance but i can totally handle it. I'm going to miss him and my brother the most on my trip! I'm glad to be getting away from NC for a bit! Gosh the people get on my nerves! Well a small amount! But its amazing what one person can do to your whole opinion on one school or place. Its pretty funny! But whatever. Anyways it's late... Im talking to my best friend Megan from NY who i haven't talked in forever! I love talking to old friends! It forces you to remember that whatever happens with those "supposedly" friends! you always have those who really matter! harsh I know but so so true! Love you meg. 
     I plan to keep updating while in NJ and hopefully I can take pictures. I have tons of expectations and goals that i hope are met during the program! Wish me luck! I think I'll be posting before I leave so keep a look out!

Tags: aiden, broadway, exams, megan, nc, njpac, over, revue, school, summer, weddington
Current Location: Calm Trance
Current Mood: cheerful
Current Music: Shuffle

Today... ah (calmly)... what do I need to say about today!

I got my braces off everyone. That being the highlight of my day and probably of my week! I feel so free. So many things will come of this. First, I believe I look better when smiling. Second, my diction when singing and acting will be soooo much better no doubt about that!

School is good. I now have an 88% in H English 2! Its going up so quickly. I can't believe it. I'm really excited. I'm going to try and get it up to a 90+ by the last report card. H Geometry, I don't really ask of my grade during class. Ms. Ziemer uses every little moment in that class so I hardly have to time to ask any questions. But right now all i have is an 82%. I took a quiz today and I think I did okay! I left one blank, and hopefully I did as well as I thought I did on the rest of the questions. But please all pray. Some of you must be praying because my braces went well. So hopefully your prayer will be working with my grades. But yeah, theyre going up.

I have inclass plays tomorrow 4th Period! It's going to be so much fun! Hopefully they go well. I'm still not feeling Newsical, I still despise the writing but its okay! Just alittle scared that some things may not go as well as planned. "Lunch" written by Trevor L. and "The Road Definitely Not Taken" written by Meredith Jones are amazing. All plays expect Meredith have been BASHED AT by Ms. Moore! I dont know its something that Meredith is doing to the cast that is making them work so well. Or maybe she just knew how to pick them! 

But anyways I really hope that my day, tomorrow, goes well. I need a good day. I am really stressed out with a lot of stuff. I've been loosing a lot of things. Like items. Notebooks, phone, tons of stuff and I just can not focus on one thing in my life right now! Can't wait till the weekend. I'm going to South Carolina and I'm ready to take some pictures with my new digital camera and my new 2gig memory card. There's nothing like a 3 day vacation that will make everything better. And there is something about the South Carolina air that purifies me. 

Well I must go. I'll talk to you all later. Bye!

Tags: braces, carolina, school, south, stress, theatre, trip
Current Location: I've been @ school, home, orthodontist,
Current Mood: content
Current Music: Celtic Women

I have so much going on but the only thing I can do is deal and suck it up.

School is getting better, I received my progress reports for Geometry and English and in Geometry I have an 82 and for English i have an 86. All I need to do is maintain for English and work harder at Geometry! I have some homework I'm going to work on later on tonight. I want to get it down in time that I can make flash cards as well and then go to bed at a decent time.

Everyone, I get my braces off on Wendsday! I hate bragging about it because I am truly scared that I will end up having to keep them on and I really do not want that! So please everyone pray that I can get them off before the WHS Broadway Revue Performance, Steps N Motion's Dance Revue, and NJPAC! I have so much coming up!

I am in a show for Theatre 2 that I honestly do not like. Newsical the Musical. Nothing against Cameron and I should be saying this to his face but I honestly don't have time for drama. But, It's really dissapointing because Cameron wrote it. I wasn't really liking the play when we first read it in class. I started liking it in the middle but now I despise it, just a little. It's not well organized, he's the director and he doesn't know his lines. Yes, I have forgotten some lines but to sit there and stare at a person making them think its their line and then they panic - and it's your line, thats rude! lol. I can't do anything about it because I don't have that type of power. The choreography is really bad in my view because I'm a dancer and I tried to help but none of my ideas were taken. But then for Cameron, to just put something in the finale the one I choreographed without talking with me made me so mad today but I just went on with it. I doesn't matter anymore about half of the class thinks we're not going to be doing that play anyways! 

I hate to bad mouth him and his play but all I'm speaking is the well thought out truth. I have a rehearsal for the finale tomorrow evening after school so hopefully that goes well. I really want the finale to go well to make up for any bad things that may occur in our last play. 

I have to go. I need some time to just relax and breathe. peace out!

Tags: braces, broadway revue, njpac, school, steps n motion, theatre2
Current Location: Everywhere in Union County!
Current Mood: drained